I am exhausted. I think all the many things I do are finally catching up with me. I love my life but man I am non stop. We started little league and we have practice 4-5 days a week. We have been eating out alot and I think life as we know it is over until June. I have 4 months until school is over and I get the whole summer off, but for now school is kicking me in the butt. I am getting to the end of the quarter when I need to step it up and get things done and I almost can't find the time. So enough about my crazy life because I know we all feel the same way sometimes.
So lets talk about diet, I haven't dieted in weeks, I just haven't had the time or energy to put into it. When we are stopping for fast food almost every night it doesn't help.
I broke out with a rash all down my left side, on my stomach, and my right hand. It is the same rash I had a few years ago and they never figured out what it was. I spent the last few days doing reserch and talking with doctors and the only thing I can figure out is that it is candidia. Candidia is to much yeast in your intestine and stomach. Some people get yeast innfections, some people get mouth infections, and others get rashes. The only way to get it out of your system is to do a diet with very low carbs and and no sugar. Yeast lives on sugar and carbs break down to sugar so the yeast has lots to feed on. Some of the sympoms are low energy, adult acne, rashes, among other things. So on Monday I am going to be doing a diet designed to help get rid of thie painful rash. It is called the caveman diet, basically it is meat, veggies, and nuts. I am going to try to avoid fast food, sugar, and carbs and see if it helps the rash.
Well I am sorry I haven't posted recently I have just been down on myself about giving up again .
Thanks,
ALi

Feb. 16, 2009
Lets just say the weekend did not go well at all. We had a ton of family fun. We went to a hockey game, the kids first baseball meeting, Valentines dinner, and alot of free time together. I was careful on Sat. morning but by the afternoon forget the diet, it was out the window. Today I am sad that I didn't stick to it but I had so much fun with my family I really on the other hand don't care. It is now Monday and a whole new day.
Our electricity went out last night and was out for most of the night, we had kids all over our floor and I didn't sleep very well knowing that when it did finally come on every light in the house and 2 tv's were going to come on. The kids acted like it was the end of the world because we had no electricity, it wass pretty funny. At our old house we had a ritual of evey time the electricity went out we would make popcorn the old fashioned way, our lights went out like at least once a week. I was bummed becasue I was out of popcorn.
We over all had a great weekend. Sat we went to play baseball with the kids in the morning as a family. At noon Cody and I went to hos baseball meeting for his new team funny enough he is on the same team as one of our good friends sons Marcus, so we will have a friend in crime with 3 practices a week plus games. Sat night we went to one of our hockey games and they won in overtime. Sun we weren't able to make it to church because Pj and Garrett are sick, we rented movies and hung out, we did make time to go to Chili's for a margarita and mini cheeseburgers as our Valentines dinner. We had fun and that's what counts. I am kind of glad I didn't try to count points sometimes I feel like I am a burden on everyone when it takes me forever to order. My kids did give me a nice compliment this weekend, they said "Mom you don't need to diet, you aren't fat". Hey it made me feel good. So as of today I am back at square one and starting over yet again.
Have a great rainy Monday I have a ton of homework to catch up on,
Ali

I thought Wed. was a hard day until I had to go through Thur. I spent the day at home with sick PJ. We went to the doctor but other then that we were just at home hanging out. I found myself eating alot of veggies and drinking coffee and crystal light to get through the day. At 6 pm Garrett had a baseball parent meeting for his team that we had to go to. At the end of the meeting they hand us our fundraiser which is 30 candybars. I spent the rest of the night staring and thinking about those stupid candies.
I found a new yummy lunch that I have eaten the last few days. I steam rice in my rice cooker and then in the steam basket I put asparagas and zucchini. When it is done cooking I top the veggies with some spray butter and 2T parmeshan cheese. The rice gets the flover of the butter and cheese from beung under the veggies when I top them.
I weighed in the same today as I did the last 2 days. 194.
well wish me luck with the weekend, Cody's baseball meeting is at a pizza place so that should be fun.
Ali

Yesterday was the hardest day yet. We had a few people over to watch the soccer game which was great. The worst part was I put chips and salse out. I resisted for a long time and then I had one small chip. Whoo the salsa was so hot that I was over the chip thing. I did have about 5 cups of coffee to try to get myself away from all the food. Dinner was fine I made my chicken burrito and had beans and rice on the side. I did give in and had one chocolate for dessert but my points allowed for me to do it. I ended up at the top of my points for the day but hey that is the best part of weight watchers.
Pj is sick:( we were up most of the night with a coughing baby. We tried 2 different cough meds, vicks on his chest, a warm bath, and even vicks on his feet with socks like one of my sis in laws suggested in an email a while ago. Nothing worked. He is coughing so hard he is throwing up. This morning we are going to the doctor to see if he may be able to get a stronger cough medicine from her.
I weighed in this morning at 194 again. I was a little bummed at first and then thought you still have lost over 5 pounds in 3 days. Yeah again for me.
Ali

Day 2 went fantastic. I packed a few protein bars and some carrots and that was my food for the day. Lucky for me when I am at school I am to busy to get hungry. I got home at 8 and was starving so I ate my lean cuisine and was good for the night. I find it hard at night becasue I want to snack alot. I am going to buy some 94% fat free kettle corn today for my night time munching.
We have a few friends coming over today to watch the USA in the world cup soccer match. We are cooking some carne asada, rice, and beans. I am going to buy chicken because it is much better then carne diet wise. I am also going to use low fat beans and make my rice with no oil. Basically I will be making diet food for all without them knowing what I am doing.
This morning when I got on the scale I was expecting to losse a bit but not to much because of all the fiber I had yesterday. 194 even yeah for me. I know it won't keep up this way bit thats ok. If I can lose 6-8 pounds a month I should be pretty close to my goal by our summer vacation and my college graduation.
Have a fantastic day,
Ali

Good morning everyone,
What a difference 8 hours of sleep can do for you, as I stretch a nice big stretch and yawn.
Yesterday went really well. I did start my diet in the morning but didn't actually make it to the market until 3pm. I did alot of skinny coffee and very little else until we got home. I found myself heading to the kitchen alot not for food but for juice or soda, lots of endless calories.
Here is my recipe for the day---

Whole Wheat pepperoni pizza
buy trader Joes whole wheat premade but raw pizza dough you get 1/2 of the bag
1/4 c. trader Joes pizza sauce, which is directly next to the dough
1/2 c. low fat motzerella
5 slices of pepperoni
whatever veggies you want to add on top, I had onion, mushroom, and shoudl have added some garlic
Throw it all together in a 425 degree over for about 15 min. Here is the trick put the oven rack as low down in the oven as it will go. If you do this you get crispy crust that is really yummy and not chewy.

So as I go into the bathroom this morning and stripped off my cloths (hey clothes can weigh 5 + pounds) I wasn't expecting much becasue it has only been 1 day well 196.2 for a 3 pound loss so far. That type of weigh in makes it much easier to keep going. I know it is all water and more then likely the beer and junk food coming off but hey 3 pounds makes me feel fantastic so I don't care how they come off.
Today I am off to school. My dilemma at school is no time to eat. I typically do a protein bar in between classes as I rush to the next room. I am going to pack some stuff today like carrots, and yogurt, I'll lwt you know tomorrow how it goes.
Ali

I'm Back!!!!
After months and months of putting off dieting I am back. I am finally at the point of being ready to tackle my eating habits and all the emotional eating that goes along with it. I have an eating problem and I know that I will have to work the rest of my life to eat healthy and not let it overtake my life again. After lots of thought of going back on my low carb, low fat, low calorie diet I decided that I need to be a responsible adult about this and not go with what works fast and short term but I need something more lilfelong and liveable. I am doing weight watchers. I am going to be trying to find time in my schedule to go to meetings and make this a priority for me.
I talked with my dear and close friend in weight loss struggles a few weeks ago and stated that I am tired of failures and people knowing exactly what I weigh and how often I seem to fall off the band wagon. After lots of thought I remembered that one of the main reasons I started this blog was for accountability and also as a log of my journey. On one of my very first blogs I said that I would always be honest and open about my weight ,struggles, and my all around dieting life. There are still a few things I will not talk about on my blog 1. poop, sorry but this is off the blog, 2. periods and that time of the month, I don't really want you all to know when I am being a b**** and 3. Sex, sorry another none of your buisness and plus mo mother in law reads this:) so there it is all wrapped up. I came to this honesty blog becasue I have receved email from countless woman telling me how much I encourage them and have helped them through some diet issue and this is what it is all about.
Now is honesty time. I weighed in this morning for this first time in I don't even know how long. I was not really surprised in what I saw because of how I have been eating and going food crazy for months now. I weigh 199 pounds. Ouch, there it is. The good part is it can only go down from here.
So what is my blog going to be from here on out? I will continue my journal but I am also going to be throwing on recipies ever now and again, diet humor, articles that may be passed on to me by other dieters, basically I have decided to not tell my failures over and over and over but to make this an adventure in how to jump back up and get back on wheen those kinds of things happen. So look for my daily blog and if there is a day here and there that I may not feel like blogging or maybe don't have time I will at least be honest and log on long enough to tell you the truth. So cheer me on and here we go. 49 pounds to go.......oh and if you have any good weight watchers recipies or ideas pass them on thebrennerfamily@verizon.net
Ali